0 Desire

Today I am struggling...ever struggled?  I swore at the start of 2012 this year was going to be different and we were going to make positive change in our lives.  We put everything we had into our budget, our health, our home.  I can't help but look back and think...yeah we have made some headway but we still have so much to accomplish...

I have spent many a nights asking God why he hasn't fulfilled my life with the things I have been longing for (selfish I know, right).  Today as I read my Bible and thought about "the desires of my heart," (Psalm 37:5-7a) I realized I am missing a crucial piece of this equation. 

"Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him"...(Psalm 37:5-7a). 

I have not been patient and frankly I do the bear minimum when it comes to delighting myself in the Lord.  It is so hard not to focus on my plan, especially for this organized planner of a person.  I am always working on a schedule, a plan, or the next step.  Frequently church isn't part of the plan because it interferes with our ability to "get things done."

Priority number one is to make my life about God and his plan.  Priority number two is to trust in him to do what is right for myself and our little family.  Priority number three is to focus on all the wonderful things God has helped us accomplish this year and give that glory back to him. 

God will give us the desires of our hearts...and even more!!  They may be different plans than our own but they are wonderful things and things far beyond what we can imagine.  Put God first in your life and all else will fall into place. 

I'm not saying it will be easy but I am going to put God back at the forefront of my life and my plans.  There will be times I falter and wonder why, or why not now, but I know I will never be disappointed by what he has in store for us.  After all, look at all that he has helped us achieve in this life thus far; amazing and wonderful things I never thought would happen. 

XOXO,
Jenn

0 Winding down...

Oh my poor neglected blog...

We have been busy soaking up every last second of this summer and the time I have had off from school.  This week ends that time off and judging by the size of the four books I have for my classes this semester I'm not sure I will see time off again in my near future. 

Jackson and I topped our summer off with a little impromptu trip to Nebraska to see my family.  We soaked in the sun, lounged, shopped, and went for long walks in the park all weekend.  It was amazing and relaxing.  No where to be and no time constraints. 

We spent an entire day lounging out by the pool and playing in the water.  My little fish has grown quite fond of the water and is getting so comfortable.  There were a few times I had to rescue his brave soul in the baby pool but otherwise he and his arm floatie friends did an awesome job. 

Everything we did all weekend was a family affair.  Great Grandma loved getting a little spoil in here and there.  She was brave enough to do something I haven't even done yet.  She trotted right over and got him an ice cream bar and sat with him to eat it. 

He had a blast making a huge mess eating that ice cream.  When it was all said and done Grandma had chocolate and ice cream running down her legs.  She was such a good sport to let him indulge while we all watched. 

In my Grandparents town there is a horse racing arena and in August and September you can go bet on the horses.  I have never been to anything like this because we are never there at the perfect time of year to go.  I was so excited to see the horses race but I didn't think I would ever bet on the them.  I ended up betting on a few races and had a lot of beginners luck!!  It was so fun to look at the horses before the race, pick out the one I liked the most and then go place my $1 or $2 bet.  Then we would sit back and cheer. 

I love my family and weekends like this really rejuvenate me.  I returned content, well rested, and so happy. 

This weekend Jess and I top off our summer with our annual canoe trip.  We are super excited and so happy that the weather has gotten a little cooler this week. 

Hope every one's summer is winding down well.  Take a little time to take it all in and relax.  Have a great week!!

XOXO,
Jenn