Today I am struggling...ever struggled? I swore at the start of 2012 this year was going to be different and we were going to make positive change in our lives. We put everything we had into our budget, our health, our home. I can't help but look back and think...yeah we have made some headway but we still have so much to accomplish...
I have spent many a nights asking God why he hasn't fulfilled my life with the things I have been longing for (selfish I know, right). Today as I read my Bible and thought about "the desires of my heart," (Psalm 37:5-7a) I realized I am missing a crucial piece of this equation.
"Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him"...(Psalm 37:5-7a).
I have not been patient and frankly I do the bear minimum when it comes to delighting myself in the Lord. It is so hard not to focus on my plan, especially for this organized planner of a person. I am always working on a schedule, a plan, or the next step. Frequently church isn't part of the plan because it interferes with our ability to "get things done."
Priority number one is to make my life about God and his plan. Priority number two is to trust in him to do what is right for myself and our little family. Priority number three is to focus on all the wonderful things God has helped us accomplish this year and give that glory back to him.
God will give us the desires of our hearts...and even more!! They may be different plans than our own but they are wonderful things and things far beyond what we can imagine. Put God first in your life and all else will fall into place.
I'm not saying it will be easy but I am going to put God back at the forefront of my life and my plans. There will be times I falter and wonder why, or why not now, but I know I will never be disappointed by what he has in store for us. After all, look at all that he has helped us achieve in this life thus far; amazing and wonderful things I never thought would happen.
XOXO,
Jenn
